So, they’re still messing around with ADHD drugs and dosage. Currently, the experiment is bupropion (aka wellbutrin and about 6 other brand names), which tends to increase availability of dopamine and norepinephrine.
This one has a really, really, weird effect. When it starts working, I can suddenly hear music. I’m not sure how to explain this. Most music has more than one component; say, two or more instruments. Normally I can hear an instrument, or I can hear harmonies. I cannot hear two instruments, or hear relationships between them. When this stuff is working, suddenly I can hear two or three things at once and experience the relationship between them.
This. Is. Amazing.
I normally like music because an external beat tends to make my head a little less full of static — computer geeks will recognize the notion of a clock signal. But when this stuff is working, I like music because it’s beautiful and full of depth and complexity I normally can’t hear.
I think I’m gonna use this as my benchmark for whether medication is working. There’s some issues with trying to find a dosage where my meds work well. One of the problems is that it’s extremely hard to measure cognitive functionality of the sort I have trouble with. How would I know whether I remembered things? I can’t usually tell until I’m reminded of them. And even when things are working well, I still forget stuff.
But ultimately, the purpose of medication is to achieve quality-of-life. And I think that hearing music is a quality-of-life issue.